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Why Not

Have you been to a place or meet someone that make you feel you don’t want to miss a thing? When that wave rise within you, go dive in and explore deeper! Don’t be afraid to wander off wherever whim takes! You might fall in love with a rock. You might get some bruises and cut. You might find yourself a new alias in a secret spot. Why not ?

How Do You Meansure

How do you measure life??? By how many times you fall in love? By how many places you visit? By how many people you connect with? By making your dream come true ? By how much you give back to community ? By what you build? By how much you create ??? Know what makes you rich than others perhaps is the measure and by Rich here I definitely don’t mean money.

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Re-Directing

I haven’t posted modeling work much lately but modeling is still a part of my creative life. I’m simply re-directing my priority

1. I’ve been brewing and making work behind the lens. It’s great to get my head back into film! I love story telling! I love making up story and share real story. I love all of it!! Story telling is my utmost love! I got into photography because i love art. Also photography concepts can be produced and completed more instantly than a movie ( teamwork from different talents, money and month to years creating /shooting .,,etc)… I love photography forever however performing for photo doesn’t fully satisfy my creativity thirst.

2. No matter how good of a model I can be( nakid in frigid cold/climb rocks n trees/ dive/ have wave crashing so hard my eyes hurt/ go to edge of tall building/ flexible/expressive/ creative/ different/ edgy… ) the ownership select and editing choices belong to the photographer’s vision and some not most will withhold my favorite images from me. THAT. HURTS.

3. I’m tired of dealing with ego. Photography is collaboration! It takes at least 2- most of my shoot consist of me and photographer only. And while I usually work with ones that value my aesthetic and opinions, some other times I get ptsd from incidents where photographerzZ feel entitled to work with me without having to pay me or post photo even have shows but don’t invite me or give me any credit at all.

4. I’m a real person and It’s an odd concept to have people think of me as a spectacle. I have a voice- a mind- a soul. Most people watch; very few see me. They are very different things. And I want to be seen and heard more than than just being watched

Mostly I need to balance the real me and the stage me. I love to perform but I feel like I loose grip of the real me having all these modeling photographic evidence of myself( photome are like a superwoman me/ confident/emotive/badasss but I don’t always feel that way and frankly I think way too much and feel way too deeply about everything that’s going on to just post a photo of what i look like today and walk away from it without expressing something real>> “ I’m real in real I’m really really real “

I use Instagram & Tumblr to promo my work but also to connect! I want to share life, thoughts, weirdness, appreciation and doubts. I want to connect. I don’t want to be a thunder strike in the mountain echoing my own belief and integrity-I’m no saint- I’m definitely more a sinner! The other day I cry about holy f I’ve seen more photos than listen to music… I want to reverse that! I thought about how words are like telepathy: melody are emotion strings but how pictures gets misinterpreted all the time even if it stems from a distinctive perspective. And then I had a terrible anxiety that this Instagram will become some kind of algorithm to piece together who Cacia Zoo was once I’m gone.. I might get hit by a car when I bike around NYC or some shit like that who knows.. i guess what I’m trying to say is COMMUNICATE! PLEASE “COMMUNICATE ” Don’t hold back your feelings to look cool. Tell that person you love him/her! Show that person how much you appreciate them! Always HUG GENUINELY (non of that tap on the shoulder hollow mannerism kind of way) And if you’re not comfortable about something- COMMUNICATE! Don’t eat yourself alive. And don’t get too emotional about someone else’s business either. Most importantly “ TAKE CARE YOURSELF AND YOUR PEOPLE”- ones that’s around you and love you and care for you for no reason at all!! They are GEMS in your life! They are what heaven on earth made of. Treat them accordingly! Love and community are what we need to hold on to in this mad world! It is not that dark if you just remind yourself that there are light and sweetness on the other side of the hill too… Oh hey there 👋 Thanks for reading! I love ya

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Please Feel

There is no bad feeling. It’s oppression that is bad. Whatever it is that you’re feeling, just feel it. What’s more important is how you deal with it.

Woof Please feel and love yourself! That is one love you’d never regret.

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Good & Evil

In fairy tales or super hero movies, good and evil are always very distinct. Whoever is cop is good. Whoever smuggle drug is bad. When you grow older, you start to realize good and evil both have more shades than just black and white.

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Free Will

Free will
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I Will Not Be Scared Of Failure

I will not be scared of failure
I will not be scared of failure
I will not be scared of failure
I will not be scared of failure

Failures, mistakes n detour are never time wasted!! They made good lessons and great stories!

I’ve never been one who done what was expected of me. I don’t want to be where I’m supposed to be; how f boring that is! Time n time again I fail; time and time again I get back up. I try and try again; experiment n take chances; that’s how I’m able to be much much more than what I’m supposed to be

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Still Beauty

Coffee still warm
cigarette butt still lit
paint brushes still wet
As we stand in silence
stare into space
And not a piece of harmony out of its places

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F Yes I Got To Be With Me Forever

I get to be with me forever, free, dress however go wherever and do whatever the F I want.

Can we celebrate independence for once?

In this society where relationship is more celebrated and 99% of the times considered win goal???

If I’m already completed. Every other person comes into my life will have to enhance otherwise sacrifice.

All y'all single ladies and gentlemens out there if you feel me say “ F Yessss! ” 🤘

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